VANESSA VILLEGAS

I feel like my biggest competitor is myself. It's sometimes easy for me to question what I'm doing when things begin to go wrong. It's hard being away from the people I love constantly and sometimes it can be easy to talk myself into maybe just giving this up. After all, I did go to College, I can easily get another job. But then I realize it's just that, me talking myself into giving up because giving up seems a lot easier than facing how difficult and disappointing this industry can be. But I think that if your not working hard then your not working. I luckily have a lot of people supporting me. 

Confidence is definitely huge. And it is not organic, I will say that. It's super easy to feel inferior in certain situations. As easy as it is to point out when things go wrong, it can be just as easy to think of the times when castings, jobs, meetings could not have gone better, and how great that felt. I think about those times to keep me moving forward and remind me why I do what I do! 

 

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I do a lot of editorial work, along with that comes some very crazy styles for sure. I think one of my most memorable outfits to date would be some of the Long Tran styles I wore while in Milan. I felt very wicked. Almost like maleficent and it made me feel really powerful. It was also difficult because the shoes by that particular designer are extremely unique and futuristic and constructed with a high platform. I had to wear them for one of his fashion week shows and I remember just hoping I don't fall. The good news is I didn't! And Lady Gaga ended up wearing the exact shoes I wore for her birthday not to long after. So I guess me and Lady Gaga got to share a pair of shoes! 

But I would say athletic gear is probably what I feel most comfortable in. I love sports and being athletic and jumping around. I did gymnastics and dance my whole life and recently took up Muay Thai and boxing. I only recently had the pleasure of getting opportunities in sport and fitness and it's so much fun. So I'd say shooting for Tommie Copper was where I felt most like myself.  

 

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Due to gymnastics, it caused me to be very muscular. This is something I absolutely dislike very much. I feel like I look so masculine sometimes and it hurts my ego. I just wish I could be skinny, but not muscular. I know some people love my body type and some people don't. It's all preference and that's what's hard. It's not personal. It's just what the client is looking for. It just hurts more when it touches on exactly what your most insecure about. 

 

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One of the most challenging aspects of my work but one that I am truly grateful for is: Acceptance. This job has really forced me to accept myself for who I really am. You essentially show up to a casting as a blank slate and for someone like me, who has really struggled accepting myself for what I consider my faults. I've really come to embrace those odd qualities about myself. It's the little quirky things that set you apart from other women that make you stand out. So instead of blending in, which is what I used to strive for basically my whole life, I don't mind standing out. Even if it's due to some odd quality. 

Also, travelling is probably my biggest struggle and the most valuable gift I could get from this whole experience. I have two sisters and a niece and a nephew back at home in Rhode Island. I'm also very close with the rest of my family and I have a special someone back at home too. I feel like the most amazing thing you can do on this planet would be to see as much of it as you can. But that would be at the expense of other important things that might be waiting for you at home.  

 

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I'm optimistic about everything in life. I love the Red Bull slogan… The only limit is the one you set for yourself. I feel like people can have everything they want and I actually think about that phrase all the time. You never really know how far you can push yourself until you push yourself to your limit, and then even further. When I was working in Milan, I felt like I truly stretch my talent as far as it could possibly go. And I'm ready to keep on working harder, and meeting new people and enjoying myself, and being happy.

 

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The end of civilization will be caused by: I'm a scientist so I can actually answer this literally or I could be a goofball… To refrain from boring your readers to sleep I'll be a goofball. I'm pretty sure pirates will lead to the end of man kind.  

 









Vanessa Villegas // vanessavillegasofficial

 

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