SARAH TARLETON

This is something that has actually been on my mind a lot recently... How to stay confident when the industry keeps throwing no's at you. Modelling is such a crazy industry and I know my friends who work the traditional desk, 9 to 5, office jobs really struggle to understand the process of it sometimes. Lots of models talk about being in development, building up their confidence alongside their portfolio, yet the irony is they are handling a lot of no's at castings to try and get more confident. There really is no correct answer to this. Time. Courage. Strength in the belief that the Universe knows what is best and has a greater plan for you. I have a great support structure around me - my mother agent (The Above and Beyond Group) has endless patience with me, always offering words of wisdom when things get down. The best thing I've probably learnt is that it's okay to feel low sometimes, embrace that feeling of rejection and dejection because that's what will ultimately push you further to up your game and prove everyone wrong.

 

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I was always a performer. I was the typical young child forcing my parents to watch my 'shows' whilst I was endlessly singing and dancing. I see modelling as a sort of extension of this - it's putting on a character and thinking what story I'm trying to tell here. I began my career extremely confident, but after a few knock backs, it definitely hit a few low points. I have a more womanly/curvy figure and that was hard to adjust to in an industry that (especially when I started working) likes the girls to be on the skinny side. Again, it really just took time and having an amazing support system around me to realise that actually I can't change who I am. Once you embrace that side of you, I think confidence can just shine out of you.

 

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A good tip to anyone who is thinking of modelling is learn to be comfortable wearing anything (or nothing!). I've had my fair share of outfits that I've looked in the mirror and thought, "This just looks terrible, who would wear this?" It's all part of the craziness of the industry. I went through a phase of doing lots of bridal jobs which I loved; I'm a girly girl so I loved the endless dresses and feeling like a princess. The makeup is also very natural and beautiful which always makes me want to head out after the job ready to go out! I have had a few shoots where I've had some strange looks on the train home - multiple corn rows in my hair looked more like Pirates of the Caribbean when I tried to take them out on the way home, and feathers stuck on my eyebrows definitely turned a few heads. In terms of my own personal style, I'm the least "off duty model" person there is; sorry to my mother agent who always tells me off for this! I wear such crazy clothes, lots of heels and lots of makeup that when I'm not working my personal style is what is the most comfortable and natural which is usually hair up, leggings or jeans and a cute (but comfy) top. I also love oversized things to keep cosy. I do keep a few killer outfits for when I feel like dressing up or if I know I'm going to see industry people. I bought a vintage leather skirt a few years ago and that goes with pretty much anything; it's become my go-to outfit.

 

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First, the most important thing is to have a really strong relationship with your booker/management so you are able to prevent uncomfortable situations as best as possible. I've turned down jobs before because things about the shoot didn't fit my beliefs and that's okay, everyone has boundaries and a great team behind you will support that. I've just spent some time away modelling in Cape Town and it has taught me so much about myself and the industry; I am so lucky that my mother agency are always there to send me WhatsApp voice notes of support (or frustration!). I also find writing things down helps as an outlet - I'm a huge fan of goal setting and visualising things - put pen to paper!!! Trust me, amazing things happen once you start writing down your goals and achievements. It's also great to talk to other models and chat - we spend so much time comparing and living through the tinted lenses of social media that we think everyone is winning but us. I have made such strong friends who are always there with words of encouragement when the going gets tough. If all that fails, I like to turn the music up loud and dance it out. 80s pop songs and dancing until I'm breathless works wonders! (laughing)

 

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Like I mentioned before, I've been working in this industry for a long time so it doesn't really phase me so much anymore. My first ever shoot, I had to get changed on the side of a busy road in London! I think, personally, I feed off people's energy; amazing shots happen when I really click with a photographer and we share the same vision. Having said that, studio shoots are my favourite - endless cups of coffee and some good music playing (back to the 80s pop again!).

 

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One of the most challenging aspects of my work but one that I am truly grateful for is learning to love myself and accept all of my flaws. It's so challenging going what seems like months on end hearing no's and not booking that one big job or when you realise you have a day off because you have no castings but then the feelings of no castings = no work. I challenge you to find any sane human who wouldn't struggle with self love at those times. But it's when I've been at my lowest that I've really looked inwards and thought, "Who am I and what am I doing this for? And that's been the biggest thing for me, learning to love myself and be kind to myself. Someone did an exercise with me recently and it really struck a chord. Can you name five things about your physical self that you like and justify why? Now name five things you dislike and justify it... Most people find the second half much easier to do than the first, and that is so sad because, really, we all should love ourselves regardless. I think I'm most grateful for being allowed to discover who I am and to just appreciate all my blessings.

 

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I think we have to be [optimistic about the future]! I mentioned before the importance of goal setting and writing things down - always be optimistic! I think we attract what we believe and if we put good out then it will come back to us. In a less philosophical way, I'm also super optimistic for the upcoming months. I'm headed home for the first time in a few months and I can't wait to see my family, my friends, and my ever tolerant manager. I'm also super excited to have a really good cup of English Yorkshire Tea! Reminder to self: never travel without a secret supply!

 

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The end of civilization will be caused by: Oh wow... I'm an optimist, I like to have hope that civilisation can thrive and become more tolerant and accepting of one another. But maybe we will all go the opposite direction and wipe each other out Game of Thrones style….

 


















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02 // Jessica Blomiley
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Sarah Tarleton // sarah.tarleton

 

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