MAURA EVELYN

Confidence is pretty funny and hard for me to describe. It can come and go at anytime (at least for me). When I have confidence, it reflects in the quality of the photograph or the art I create. When I don't have confidence, I usually don't like what is produced as a result. I would love to say that anytime I'm not feeling 100% myself, I just won't create -but that is difficult to do when you model full-time so I just learned how to fake it! And what's great about faking confidence is that by convincing others, you tend to convince yourself as well. But I always try to remind myself whenever I can that confidence is rooted in remaining true to myself and my values -then the rest will come easily. 

 

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I was not always comfortable in my own skin and definitely not in front of the camera. As far as being in my own skin, I started modeling very young, and to be constantly surrounded by natural beauty in the fashion world can be very daunting, especially to a teenager who is still developing both physically and mentally. I never saw myself as being as beautiful as the other women I compared myself to. It had nothing to do with my body or my appearance, but fortunately one day I reached this mental state where I realized, I don't have to be as beautiful as them. I can just be myself and I'll take it for as long as people want to keep exploring art and photography with me. Art modeling helped with that self realization a lot because working with artists, they don't judge you, they just try their best to record you through themselves. It's an interesting world to be a part of.

With developing myself in front of the camera -that took time too. Nobody told me when I started out as a model that you needed to put forth a part of yourself for the camera. I thought modeling was just a camera capturing your beauty. There is a huge difference in my first photos compared to my work developed over the past few years and it's not a result of a change in my body or face, it's just that I realized that my favourite photographs from photographers I've worked with are the ones that I recognize myself in. I was free to express my personality and play with movements that felt comfortable to me. As far as my favourite parts of myself…I think it always changes but I love my height and I love my fingers. 

 

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I am a bikini and lingerie addict and my favourite wardrobe to shoot are in those categories. I love anything soft so if the material feels good on my body, I am a happy girl. One of my favourite shoots was pretty recent -last December I shot for a new lingerie line coming out this fall called Liviara. Their concept was dark and bizarre (my favourite things) and we got to play around with a lot of fun wigs and make up in addition to the beautiful lingerie we were modeling (think Marie Antoinette meets BDSM). But I think the strangest things I've ever been exposed to were on the runway. Designers get weird with their concepts during fashion week. I've been gothic and vampire-like with blue lips and no eyebrows, and I've been in make up where I don't even recognize my face. The art world is bizarre too… I've been in so many themed drawings and costume workshops that I'm pretty comfortable playing any dress-up role. My favourite though is just all natural, minimal make-up, simple garments and pieces, outside in nature; that is where I truly feel like myself. 

 

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It was pretty obvious from an early age that I would not be going on to have a very conventional career. I've always loved art; my parents and grandparents instilled it in me from the beginning by taking me to museums all over the world and opening my eyes to the varieties in art and culture. Some of my fondest memories as a kid are the ones that I can draw inspiration from when working today. I spent a lot of my time outdoors exploring nature and camping. Also, as an only child it helps to develop an active imagination to keep yourself entertained.

 

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One of the most challenging aspects of my work, but one that I'm grateful for is: The fact that working freelance means everything falls on you. You have to constantly work, even when you're not on set or shooting. It takes a lot of commitment and self discipline, but I am grateful everyday because it means not having to answer to a boss (which I have never been very good at) and there is a certain sense of self-preservation that is very rewarding.

 

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I definitely have big plans for the future, I'm just not sure what they are yet… I know that modeling will not be a forever deal and would like to pursue more as time goes on. I have a lot of travelling planned in the near future and would like to continue pursuing art (specifically painting) and have recently taken steps to get back into volunteering with parks and wildlife.

 

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The end of civilzation will be caused by: Either zombie apocalypse or just us humans destroying our world.  

 
















01 // Ray Gutierrez // raysba
02 // Enrique Bautista // riquemb
03 // Charles Lucima // charleslucima
04 // Eric A. Reid // ereid3
05 // Ray Gutierrez // raysba
06 // Haseeb Omar // haseebophoto
07 // Ren Lara // ren_lara_photo
08 // Carey Hess // careyhess
09 // Ray Gutierrez // raysba
10 // Vladimir Neri // vladimirneri
11 // Enrique Bautista // riquemb
12 // Mavera Fadaei // mavera_fadaei
13 // Troy Hodnett // mass_hysteria418
14 // Mavera Fadaei // mavera_fadaei
15 // Enrique Bautista // riquemb
16 // Martin Kunert // martinkunert

 

Maura Evelyn // mauraevelyn // mauraevelyn.com

 

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