LILIANA PHAM

Let's say it's not about self-confidence but self-awareness. Being self-confident is very subjective. And be sure with my own work is still subjective. But what is quite reliable is the feeling of self-consciousness. You just know it or you don't know it.

Being self-confident means to be sure that I'm doing good things. Being self-aware for me means expressing just how I feel right now. And I don't decide whether it is good or bad. And that's the moment when I don't have the problem to publish or share my work.

 

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It's very easy, women want to be photographed because they want to be beautiful and pictured. Women are more willing. Men never cared about it and have no reason to be photographed. In the future, I would like to focus more on men, because it is harder to get in touch with them and to work with them.

 

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Before I start photographing, I need to know the person. I don't start taking photographs without a deeper conversation. I always try to create an intimate atmosphere. We open each other and exchange our views on the world. We talk about life, about relationships, about us... then I can photograph. Then I know what to capture. And they start to trust me, and that is very, very important. Sometimes it happened that a great picture was created just accidentally.

 

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In my childhood I was bullied for being Vietnamese. I was the only Asian. A break came at my age of thirteen when I accepted that I was different and suddenly I was respected by others, too.

In this fragile age, every girl is grateful for being a model for someone. I felt like I was finally fully accepted for how I looked and people even liked my appearance. It was a balm for a soul and being a model for me was a hobby. I enjoyed it and met so many interesting people.

But after seven years, I realized that I did it mainly just to experience the feeling of photographing, but I wasn't ready to be a photographer. I was learning and watching how photographers work. Then I knew it was the right time, so in the summer of 2015, being a model for other photographers ceased to fulfill me and I escaped to taking self-portrait to find my personality and visual style.

 

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I love timeless photographs. For me, it means that I like when the photograph can't be classified in time, whether it was taken fifty years ago or today and the pictures should look good for another fifty years into the future. This means that my models are dressed in simple, classic pieces. Black turtleneck or black woolen coats are exactly my cup of tea.

 

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Sometimes I meet interesting faces and I see the photograph, but the worst is to take the courage and ask the person. Once in summer I met a girl at the McDonald's. She worked at the cash desk and when she asked me what I wanted to order, I said I want to take a photograph of her. She was very surprised. We talked while the customers stood behind my back. But the photoshoot took place and that day I made one of my key photographs.

 

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I would really like to believe that the future will be nice, but I already feel it is corrupt. And it is caused by humans who think they live on this planet alone. Humanity is in danger of destroying itself. When that moment comes, it will be too late... we live in a comfortable zone, everyone has everything. Everything is available and we want things right now and immediately. When I visit a huge supermarket full of food and things I feel very anxious.

 

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The end of civilization will be caused by: Our greed.

 















01 // Anna Tran // ___________nanah
02 // Andrea Puldová // anysblack
03 // Andrea Puldová // anysblack
04 // Andrea Puldová // anysblack
05 // Anna Tran // ___________nanah
06 // Ema
07 // Duhovavila // duhovkyvesmir
08 // Anezka Stastna // anezka.s
09 // Terezie Kovalova // tereziekoval
10 // Eva Slaba // evaslaba
11 // Adéla Julisova // adeljulisova
12 // Antonie Šteflová // steflic_an
13 // Loli Laneova // lolilaneova
14 // Adela S. // adela_stoklasova
15 // Velloidum // vell_sv

 

Liliana Pham // lilianapham // lilianapham.myportfolio.com

 

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