HOLLY HORNE

My confidence was drawn from a young age. I've been acting since I was nine years old, my mother plonked me on a stage at my local theatre and from that moment onwards I pushed myself to go to every course, and summer class. Five years later I was scouted as a model and actor, and then begun doing small shoots here and there through the years in between school. Confidence I feel comes when you feel comfortable in what you're doing. Practise makes perfect. And I worked hard to be where I am now. However saying that, ultimately my confidence is drawn from my mum. She kept me grounded, and always had my inner beauty at the forefront before any physical beauty. Being happy with myself mentally and emotionally brings confidence that can't be built by a photograph. Whenever I need a boost, I tell myself to think of what my mum would see in me; the things that are partly her as well. Accept who you are, before you judge what you are.

 

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I'm not comfortable in my own skin even now. There are parts of me I despise when I wake up some mornings. There are moments when I feel like I should just give up and get a "normal" job because my physical appearance isn't "up to scratch" for the model industry's expectation. Being comfortable in your own skin, and getting a job done for the camera are two different things. I'm comfortable in front of the camera because I understand what the client wants as an image. Whether that's edgy, commercial or just plain silly. But that doesn't make me comfortable about my body. Being able to adapt to every client and their needs is what makes a model good at their job. That, and knowing what angles make your body look best. For instance, keeping my chin down and slightly angled to my right will accentuate my cheekbones. Sticking my bum out will make my thighs look thinner. These little tricks help you fit into what is expected of you physically in the industry. The industry that crazes the sickly thin model. However saying that, remaining grounded as a person reminds me that if I genuinely like the way I am, and can appreciate how lucky I am to have the figure I do and the job I have, I should love every aspect of my unrefined body. So of course I love and hate my "big" hips (35.5 inch). It's womanly, they give me a curve, and can make my waist look thinner. I love my bum, although high end fashion hates it and makes it impossible for me to fit into designer clothing. All of these attributes I'll accentuate in my work, if it's right for the client. You just have to know what attribute is right for each client.

 

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I'm not going to lie and say I wake before every shoot after having a solid eight hour sleep, drink a green tea, and meditate before rocking up for work. Some days I've woken hungover and feeling very sorry for myself and still turned to put 100% into the job. There's no routine I do, nothing that prepares me for the task at hand. A coffee and light hearted conversation, getting to know the team for that day while having my makeup done is all I do. The first few shots will always be rusty as you get into the swing of it again. But I just try to be myself with every shot. 

 

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God, most memorable clothing... there are so many. I adored a Tom Ford dress I nearly fit into... if only my hips were a little smaller! Again that love hate relationship popping up. I oddly adore most clothing I wear for work. And that's most probably to do with how my agency (MiLK London) places me with clients that will work with me as a person, not just as a clothes hanger. I've loved the dresses and jumpsuits I wore for Coco Fennel in an Alice in Wonderland shoot I did for their lookbook. However, I've loved the native rose collection for their a/w collection this year. Their parka was just sublime. There are so many to name, every piece of clothing comes with a memory from each shoot and team I've worked with. And that's what makes the clothing more memorable than anything. But when it comes to comfort, none can beat wearing my bright red, fat face PJ bottoms, a baggy T and my fluffy socks. Addictively cozy for miserable London weather.

 

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One of the most challenging aspects of my work would have to be the rejection. Most castings I go to I will probably not book the job. But I'm grateful for it, because when I am booked for something, it makes me feel like out of every other girl they saw, I was just right for them. And that's quite nice, really; to feel unique in such a large competitive industry. 

 

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I'm an optimistic person in general, so yes I do feel positively about the future. I strongly believe in karma, and what you put into life, will come back to you rewardingly. I'm not expecting big things for my career, I'm just riding this wave until my next adventure. Whatever that may be, feature films or bartending, or even writing a novel. Who knows? I've never been one to plan, especially in such a spontaneous and sporadic industry. I like not knowing what I'm doing tomorrow till the night before. I enjoy keeping a suitcase partially packed for the last minute jobs abroad (the rare jobs abroad, I'm no big shot). You never know what's 'round the corner, and everything happens for a reason, so never fight it. I'm just taking every opportunity that's coming my way.

 

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The end of civilisation will be due to animal agriculture. And if you think I'm trying to be funny, I promise I'm not. Check out this really informative documentary called "The Dangers of Industrialised Animal Agriculture." Might make you rethink how you treat the earth.

 
















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