ANNA ZELLER

I'd say I draw confidence from the people around me and my experiences but primarily from my own view and perspective. There is so much judgement in this world and no one is perfect so I really feel a positive, and optimistic attitude can help towards building a more positive self-esteem. So instead of beating yourself up when things don't go to plan, try to just say, "Hey, I'm only human" and think about what you can learn from the situation. Or if someone gives you feedback, establish they mean it in a constructive, and positive way and it isn't to point out something that is wrong with you.

I also try to establish what truly makes me happy and how I can meet the goals I've set myself, which helps me feel more capable, strong, and in control. I think overall confidence comes from an all around lifestyle. For example, I notice my mood and self-esteem dip during the fall because my diet and schedule is less consistent; I exercise less and am generally less healthy. I'm also effected by the colder, shorter, darker days and lack of vitamin D so again try to keep this in balance with a positive outlook. Meeting people is another thing that makes me feel empowered and helps my confidence. I try to look at the media and other people's success stories as inspiration and not a comparison.

Would I say I'm fully confident? Unfortunately no, and I do have to work at it every day consciously and there are times I naturally feel lower than anyone. This is when a strong support network (friends, family, partner) becomes so important. I always need someone to talk to rather than bottle something up in order to squash any insecurity caused or make clear sense of a problem, and sometimes just a hug can make everything better when your confidence gets a little low.

 

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I haven't always been confident in front of the camera or in my own skin. Growing up, I've been conscious of every little imperfection such as having a little front teeth gap and never liked smiling in photos. This actually changed when I met someone who loved my smile and actually forced me to smile in every photo which made me love it as well. It's also taken learnings, experiences in order to be comfortable with being in front of a camera. I have worked with a lot of brilliant, and talented photographers in the industry who understand body shapes and positioning and have taught me so much about posing and have boosted my confidence. It sounds obvious but the more photos you have taken by different people, the more you understand what looks good and what doesn't. And when you relax and feel confident, the end result looks better as well. This is why I feel it's so important to have fun on shoots and communicate efficiently. I still have 'off' days when I might feel a little bloated or less on form but as soon as I have people around me, I seem to get my energy back up and realise the feeling comes from inside and isn't necessarily judged the same from the outside.

 

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My most memorable items always come from wearing unique creations by stylists and artistic shoots. I'm always open to different people's ideas and visions and love the versatility of every project. I'm actually very comfortable in lingerie as I like to play with the shape and curves of the body and find this brings out the most femininity whereas sometimes the wrong clothes can be unflattering. I love elegant and feminine boudoir shoots and also love to work on period styles such as the 1920s because I love the glitz and glamour of the era. However, I also love to work on casual wear shoots as the more time I can spend in cosy sweatshirt, the better.

 

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I guess this comes from internal judgement and knowing your own strength and barriers. For example, I know what styles of photography I personally enjoy and would suit. I know I'm better suited for commercial work due to my look and measurements. I'm comfortable being playful and fun in reality, therefore I know I can tackle most commercial, beauty, and lingerie shoots. I also know my limit when it comes to levels. I appreciate work that uses nudity to the advantage of a photo and the story it's trying to tell in a tasteful, feminine, artistic way. Therefore, in order for me to be comfortable with the project, I have to gain a good understanding of what we're looking to achieve. This is easily done through mood boards, clothing examples, previous work examples, etc... There is also a level of personal judgement involved, of course, when it comes to choosing who to collaborate with. I like someone that comes across friendly and has a sense of humour even prior to meeting. I also appreciate people with passion and professionalism. These qualities usually make for someone I'd enjoy working with.

 

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One of the most challenging aspects of my work but one that I am truly grateful for is: The last minute nature. This can be both a pain in the ass or a blessing. What I mean is due to the nature of the freelance industry, you get a lot of people cancelling or needing to re-arrange last minute which makes planning your diary a little difficult. However, as most people are in the same boat, you also get a lot of last minute jobs to fill emptier days.

 

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I'm trying to stay super optimistic. I think with it being a New Year as well, it's so much easier to view things as a fresh start (even though I'm not a big believer in New Year's resolutions). Last year the change in my life was very new but I'm viewing this year as the first full year of managing my own time/diary and gaining more control of my life. I'm going to focus more on the things I enjoy in life and try not to worry about the things I can't control. My diary is already filling up with exciting work and personal commitments. I have two big holidays to plan for the year ahead already including going back to my favourite country (Canada), which I get withdrawal symptoms from if I haven't been for a year. I'm excited to check back on myself in a years time and see what has changed.

 

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The end of civilization will be caused by: Greed!

 











Anna Zeller // zellerlifestyle // zellerlifestyle.org

 

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