AMY LOUBRIS

It has definitely been a long journey to find my secret ingredient to confidence. As hard as it is to not compare myself to others, that's the first step. It is extremely difficult not to do so, though. Every single time I'm doubting myself I ask myself what high school Amy would think of the current Amy. I am only barely scratching the surface of this industry, but I have already succeeded so much further than I expected to. My teenage self's jaw would drop at my accomplishments. Once I put my mind in the right place, everything becomes much better. 

 

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Being comfortable in my own skin has been a bumpy, uphill journey. When I first came to LA, I was with a large agency for half a year. Due to them telling me I was not good enough every time I came to the agency for digitals, it really ruined my self image. Upon my first go-see with them, I was told to make some changes and "lose eight pounds." I was striving for something nearly impossible. I felt defeated once I was told this. I asked the agent, "How do I lose that weight? I already eat so healthy." It was suggested to go on a no-carb diet. So, I did. By dodging carbs and abusing the sauna after many excruciating daily workouts, I lost weight. It was only a few pounds, but I was in a mental hell. 

A few months later, I temporarily moved back to Colorado to escape the mental stress. This resulted in my relationship with my boyfriend of two years ending, and me dropping all of my dreams because they tore me apart. I eventually learned that rarely should people strive to lose actual "weight." Especially me. I am already so slender and toned. If anything, I should have been told to tone up - not lose eight pounds. Eight pounds that I did not have to lose in the first place .

Long story short, I came back to LA a bit less than a year after escaping reality. This time I was refreshed and had the "I do not give a shit what anyone thinks of my body," attitude. I couldn't have cared less about how well my modeling career was going to go. No pressure was needed if my success was destined to eventually come! Not putting pressure on myself, eating what I wanted (with healthy moderation as everyone should do), and just taking all opportunities presented to me were the perfect equation to becoming a successful model. 

Through this long journey, I have learned to not only accept, but love my body. I have an athletic, toned build. Instead of fighting against what I was born with, I have recently been focusing my portfolio and bookings toward athletic jobs! I am now extremely comfortable in front of the camera, and it shows.

 

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I wish I had this advice for myself when I began this career. DO NOT LOSE YOURSELF – stay true to you! This is crucial. I wish everyone in the entertainment industry would often do a reality check and ask themselves if what they are doing is for themselves before it being for anyone else. If it does not make you happy, figure out how to change what you are doing so that it does feel fulfilling. Also, if something doesn't feel right, listen to your gut instinct. On the contrary, taking risks and pushing the limit – within your comfort zone – only leads to the best outcomes and life lessons!

When it comes to being told to "just lose eight pounds" when going to open calls at agencies, it's complete bullshit. I was told this when I was with an agency a couple of years ago. I was in the best shape of my life. I was eating healthy and working out almost too much. Once they told me to lose eight pounds I did almost everything I could think of (except starve myself). I went on a no carb diet and it was the worst few weeks of my life. I was miserable. I finally attained the look they wanted but due to low confidence, I was not booking anything. It doesn't matter how many pounds one loses. Sadly, it's inches, not pounds. But I've heard every one of my skinny friends tell me they were told to lose weight by agencies. I wasn't alone. It will happen. And you just have to not let it bring you down. 

 

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To be completely honest, I had absolutely no idea what career path I wanted to take "when I grew up." I was always worrying because everyone else was going to college for exactly what they wanted to do. After years, I realized I am the more advantaged one; I had a more open and skeptical mind. I always have and always will. 

I'm not saying I am better than anyone by any means. I'm just happy to be more accepting of the unknown. I never really knew I was going to be a model until the end of high school. It had always been a goal of mine, though, to prove those wrong who had ever made me doubt my beauty, self-worth, or personality.

This has been a long journey, but the best one I could have chosen. I originally thought of modeling as a side thing from my day jobs. It was a confidence booster - a hobby. Even the first time I moved to LA, I didn't take my modeling career very seriously. As I mentioned earlier, I didn't take it seriously until I put less stress on myself. This past year is the first time I have taken so much pride in my career. I quit my day job a few months ago, and am now loving the rush of supporting myself doing what I love!

It came to me all of a sudden, and I'm so glad it did. Once I get into my groove and establish a set pattern, I plan on attaining a second associates degree in mortician science!

 

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I love discussing fashion and my personal style! Of course shoots go much better when I feel amazing in the clothes I am shooting in. I always love when I get to model a more edgy wardrobe. Oddly, most every job I am booked for, I am styled in minimal clothing that exposes my legs. I do not mind this since my legs are one of my best assets. My favourite styling, to date, was my campaign shoot for Toni & Guy, coming out this month. I was wearing a black, mesh Minimal Animale one piece swimsuit with a beautiful white blazer. I love wearing androgynous chic clothes, which is exactly how I would describe the style of that shoot! The only times that I have not enjoyed wardrobe for a job is when it is too baggy and I drown in the clothing. I prefer to wear my clothes – not let them wear me!

 

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One of the most challenging aspects of my work, but one that I'm grateful for is: To remain original because that is what makes me unique in this industry. Through tough times, I have learned that flaws are what make me individual and noticeable. I used to think that I had to mold to certain ways and looks in order to succeed in this industry. Instead I decided that it is best for me to follow my instincts and do what seems right at the moment – and never look back. 

 

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I am extremely optimistic about my future! Do I know what the hell I will be doing in two years? Nope, but I love that it is a mystery. There wouldn't be any fun if it wasn't a mystery. I like to keep my options open and my opportunities endless. AKA, I have many backup plans for if all hell breaks loose. I plan on eventually being a mortician. When I have time, I will be going to school to attain a mortuary science degree, and I cannot wait! I have been fascinated by life and death for the longest time. I plan on eventually owning a successful mortuary unlike any other. But anyway, I plan on conquering my future, whatever it may be.

 

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The end of civilzation will be caused by: The zombie apocalypse, and I am so very ready! If it's not a zombie apocalypse, then it will be that technology takes over the human race and overpowers us. I can seriously see it happening. Sort of in an iRobot-type-way… Spooky.

 













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02 // Paul Capra // paulcapra
03 // Uriel Espinoza // oreeeo
04 // Marcus Hyde // marcushyde
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06 // Nigel Elliott // nigelliott
07 // Andrew Salama
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Amy Loubris // amyloubris // genuineaj.tumblr.com

 

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